by Ahoia Collaborator

What’s your favourite colour? 
Green and Blue. Reminds me of all the beautiful things Mother Nature has provided for us. 

What self-care habits do you intertwine into your daily routine? 
I make sure to spoil and love myself. Every. Single. Day. I find simple joys in getting myself fresh flowers, jamming to music, expressing my body through movement, lighting a scented candle, fresh linen, and of course, eating delicious food to nourish the soul! I am such a sensual person, so being conscious of what my mind and body want each day is a sacred practice of mine. 
What's your favourite book? 
The Power of Now By Ekhart Tolle. This book opened my mind sooo damn much man, it helped me see things through. Thankful for everything it has taught me.
Who can you go to when you need to get something off your chest? 
My Aunt and my boyfriend. I am very grateful to have them. I refuse to build up any negative feelings inside, so talking to them always makes me feel good. I know I can go to them and discuss how I’m feeling without judgment.
What’s your safe place? 
Time to myself. Nothing compares than putting myself aside from everything else and getting cozy. Spending time alone is a great way to reconnect with yourself. 
Have you ever dealt with anxiety? If so, how do you calm your mind?
For about 3+ years I had dealt with high levels of stress and anxiety. Not so much nowadays - none the less, I am still on my journey of ruling it out. I have gone through all sorts of methods to calm my mind, taking walks and being with nature, breath work, yoga. But just sitting somewhere comfortable and being able to really focus on my thoughts has been a successful method for me. I sometimes feel overwhelmed if I’m around too many people so having space to slow down my thoughts to the point I am able to identify the issue. 
Have you ever gotten yourself out of a dark place? Or have you ever needed to help someone else out? If so, how? 
Yes, I think everyone goes through somewhat of a dark patch throughout their life. During these times journaling was my main way to express anything that shadowed my mind. I had trouble opening up back then so writing down my feelings was a good way for me to understand what I was going through. I was always quite an athletic and creative kid so playing a lot of sport and fulfilling my creative spark was beneficial for me. 
Do you think social media affects your mental health or has any other negative impacts on you? If so, how do you best deal with it? 
Most definitely, I have seen social media affect others mentality it is not a pleasant state to be in. I always remind myself it will only affect your mental health if you let it. Make sure you are feeding yourself nothing but love and inspiration through social media. You choose what you see and who you follow, you have all the power to build up a healthy mindset. Social media is a wonderful place for me as I use it as my creative outlet and to connect with my friends and family who live abroad. But I understand that if you don't use it wisely you can easily get caught up in toxic posts that will eventually consume your mind with negativity, thus leading you to think less of yourself. I've kept an open mind with social media so I haven't let it get the best of me. I see social media as an amazing platform that gives you a place to be who you are and to create the things you want. I make sure to only consume the good things that will help nourish and inspire my mind.
What’s your biggest fear? 
Losing my loved ones. 
What’s the biggest change you can identify within yourself in the past year?
I am still on my journey but the biggest change I have noticed is that I fully understand my self-worth. Being able to consciously choose who/what deserves my energy. I believe your energy is precious. 
What’s one of the hardest things you’ve had to go through in life? How did you get through it? 
I was a victim of sexual abuse. Throughout my childhood, I was sexually and verbally abused by someone I thought I trusted. I stayed silent for years, as I thought this was the best option at the time. High school was a rough time for me, this was when I really started to see how this was affecting my mentality. I was still trying to figure out whether these traumatic experience were real or not while juggling the wild years of trying to find yourself. I struggled with a lot of pain and anxiety, my mind played games with me that had affected my day to day life. I began to blame myself a lot for what had happened to me. I had convinced my self that it was my fault. I know these experiences were out of my control but I still couldn't help but feel this way. After years of keeping this a secret, my mental health was really suffering, I decided I had enough and it was time to open up. The trial had taken roughly 3 years till he was sentenced to prison. This course was an emotional rollercoaster, to say the least. I had even considered giving up, all the stress I went through didn't seem worth continuing till the end. But with my close family, friends and boyfriend by my side I was able to find the strength within myself to keep going. I know my past was not warm to me, but speaking up was the best thing I have ever done for myself. I have fought so hard to get to where I am today, I am very lucky to have such supportive and loving people who have guided and shaped me to be the woman I am. I am a proud woman who has overcome my biggest challenge and I couldn't be any happier for myself! 
What advice would you give to your 16-year-old self? 
Love your ethnicity and every single piece of you. You are unique, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. 
If you could change one thing within society, what would that be? 
This is a super hard one, but I have always had strong feelings towards greed and selfishness. Let's change that.